I’ve never been categorized as someone’s best friend. I’m always that floating friend who gets called around only when people need me. I’ve never had a friend that I can call in the middle of the night just to talk or someone who will randomly get food with me at 3:30 in the afternoon cause we’re bored, or someone who knows everything about me. There have been instances where I would have a close friendship with someone but they would quickly find someone else to be their “best friend” and I would be left in the background. It’s really not that big of a deal but it just sucks because I ruin all my friendships by myself. I’m such an asshole that people don’t want to be around me. In judgmental, ignorant, and rude and now I know why no one likes me. I always try to stop being so blunt but sometimes the words just fall out and I can’t help it. I wish I could change myself so people would actually want to be my friend.