Okay, I still get annoyed when you guys hangout. I’m sorry.

I hate how upset I get over the littlest things. I hate how I always blow things out of proportion. I hate that I make other around me mad because of my own pissy moods. I wish I could just change myself and I wish I could just stop complaining. I just want to be enough for you. I’m so overwhelmed.

Forever used. But I’ve learned to just let it happen and let it go. I know I should stand up for myself but I just don’t want to deal with the fights or the arguments. I’d rather just avoid everything.

I don’t even know why I bother to try and make plans with any of my friends anymore. They’re all either hanging out with their boyfriends or are busy with other stuff. My friend and I who aren’t really talking to any guys just hangout with each other and I feel like its jut going to be us two for awhile. I don’t mind it being us two but I miss when my friends and I all used to hangout like every weekend and all together. I don’t know, it’s just annoying and sad and I just miss my friends.

Since I can’t write anything on here without nosy people from my school reading it, I decided to write all of my personal posts on a different tumblr. I’m not telling anyone it. I just wanted to put that out there because I’m angry that I can’t post anything I really want to without others that I know seeing it. 

It’s done. It’s over. Forever. I hope you’re happy because now I really have no one left.

I wish you would stop ignoring me and tell me how you really fucking feel for once instead of hiding behind your walls and pushing everyone away when all they’re trying to do is help.

All of these thoughts and memories make me want to go down the street and lie in the middle of traffic.

I’m so jealous of a few girls just by what they have and how they look. But then I realize that they are just as insecure than I am. And then I think, no matter how much you hate yourself… there’s more than likely another girl out there that wishes she was like you.

I’m so jealous of a few girls just by what they have and how they look. But then I realize that they are just as insecure than I am. And then I think, no matter how much you hate yourself… there’s more than likely another girl out there that wishes she was like you.

I wish I had someone to love that I knew would still love me next week and not always be talking to someone on the side. 

I get so fucking tired of girls choosing their boyfriends over their friends.

Why can’t I ever just be happy with the only person I have ever wanted to be with without people trying to ruin it? This is the only person I have ever loved, can’t I just have this one thing for once in my life….